It’s finally today that I finished reading thirteen reasons why. The book I’ve been craving ever since I saw it at the crossword store and when one of my Instagram mutuals posted about the web series in their story. I never knew what the book was about when I got the giddy feeling in my stomach on seeing the paperback.But I knew it was about teen issues ,if that makes any sense. I never knew I could relate to a book that much. You know the feeling when you just get hooked up to a book, the character is a similar version of you,same feelings and everything.
‘Hannah Baker- the teen who took her own life’ What did you think when you read that statement right now? A coward girl who couldn’t even live life?huh?what a sore loser. Or maybe thinking she was just an kmmature teen ,she had great life left ahead of her which she let loose. But,did you ever try to think this in a different way like ” what would cause a happy child to kill herself?The traumas that led her to believe dying is the only option .”
Here I introduce Hannah Baker-,the character out of every book i’ve read i realte to the most. She tried seeking for hope,too hard. Until finally the hope turned into disappointment, worthlessness and finally death. You see,she wasn’t born a depressed child. The circumstances forced her to be in. For example, the number of times certain amount of people made her a skeptical person, ruined her reputation .Ranging from Justin Foley to Mr Porter ( who wasn’t much of blame like Clay) who emotionally crumbled Hannah to a point where the only solution she thought of was suicide. The worst one described in the tapes in my opinion were Alex ,Tyler and Bryce (not in chronological order). Alex for ruining his reputation the most(At least she came to know about the true colours of Jessica then) ,Tyler for ruining her sense of security in her own home and lastly Bryer for making her loose her last or rather second last ray of hope for life left.
But it’s true that Clay wouldn’t be the same person he is now after listening to the tapes if he didn’t hear to Hannah’s cassettes. It was because of hearing that he kind of saved Skye( which Jay left a mystery for what happened ,but I choose this for myself to believe :p ) .If it weren’t for the tapes,he wouldn’t have gotten the courage to call out Skye like he didn’t with Hannah. He left Hannah when he asked him to (which he regrets) not knowing that Hannah needed him but didn’t have the strength to admit .I mean which depressed person would seek for help to someone themselves? Clay being blind to this knowledge earlier couldn’t understand, it wasn’t his fault though. Depressed persons like me hide depression really well. But we got our moral peeps, Don’t be ignorant to anyone or hurt someone deliberately. Who knows ,some people take the very small thing (if even a joke) very seriously and it causes a lot of explosions in their brains,like it does to me. And always notice the signs of a suicidal person, they do a great job at hiding their emotions like you at hiding dark circles with your concealor.
Norah 